Yep. It's true. The Ice Queen has melted.
I'm falling in love.
And I totally just had a giggle fit after writing that. I'm sorry. It's probably good that I don't live around anyone who knows me, because I think I might be nauseating :-P
Anyway, yeah, after all of my protesting and lamenting and questioning and othering, God was writing a love story after all.
And it's pretty incredible. I gotta say.
Being in a relationship - especially a long distance relationship - is challenging me in ways that being single never did. As a single woman, I've learned to be self sufficient. To be strong and tackle problems on my own and be my own advocate. That's not what loving someone is about. Love is about trust. Relying on someone else to be there. To follow through with what they say they'll do. (I think I have more control freak in me than I realized or admitted, actually.) Trusting someone doesn't come easily to me. Trusting someone who says I'm amazing and beautiful and the love of his life is . . . freakin' hard. I want to laugh it off and say "that's nice." But I can't not believe him. And that's scary.
Fortunately he's patient. And kind. And a lot of other really good things to me :)
